LOVE and Be Loved

It’s advent. A season of waiting & anticipation….Something important is coming. A reminder to surrender our hearts to the baby born as Savior of the world. A reminder to us of who the greatest physician is and a reminder as to where our faith and trust should be placed.

I needed this reminder today. Tate is struggling. Pain is increased and feelings of defeat are high. Care conference yesterday was positive. We’re moving forward with a combination surgery to place a G-tube, a broviac and harvest an ovary for cryo-preservation. The G-tube needs 5-6 weeks to heal prior to transplant, so this needs to happen before Christmas to stay on schedule. This is looking like surgery and admission will happen either the 21, 22 or 23rd, but we won’t know until the day before. If the admission becomes finalized, this brings us into Christmas as in-patient.
We wait.
We are onto match #4 as our donor. She hasn’t yet cleared testing but gave a commitment date which leads us to admission around January 24th. Our previous #2 match cleared testing but won’t commit to dates. Backup #3 match didn’t respond which brought us to choice #4 who is enthusiastic! Praise God! And almost as great of a match as #2. Pray for her to clear her testing and fully commit to showing up. Next steps would potentially be Tim or I as a 1/2 match. Not ideal. I trust #4 will come through.
We anticipate.
Fertility preservation presented a whole lot of unsavory news today that I wasn’t prepared for. I cope with information. When I don’t have that or feel let down by lack of or mis-information, I struggle. It’s the only thing I can control. I’m not in control-this is in God’s hands. There is no better season than now to be reminded who we surrender to.
A sweet friend gave me a book focused on advent. Hold on to HOPE. Find PEACE. Choose JOY.
LOVE and Be Loved.